Self Reflection

When I made a mistake, my peers did not punish me as you did. When I say something that you think I shouldn't, you judge and condemn me. When I look at myself in the mirror, you say I’m too fat, too thin, growing old, and I have wrinkles. I thought you were on my side!

When we reflect on our thoughts, we notice our minds have the tendency to speak these words unconsciously. And if we are not conscious of it, we readily believe what the mind says. We are our own worst enemy. Sometimes we say things like I’m not good enough, that person is better than me or hey look I’m getting fat. This mental labelling is happening unconsciously and flies around in our head. To silence these voices, we do things like; go shopping, buy more makeup, gossip, use substances, illegal or legal drugs. We may even engage in dangerous activities such as jumping out of an aeroplane or climbing the highest mountain. After going through all of that, we later discover that those voices are still there. So the only option we have left to silence the voices is to go to our favourite pub and hold a glass of vodka in one hand and a cigarette in the other. We live in a discontent civilisation, and we label those kids that can’t sit still as ADD and yet we are still oblivious to the obvious.

As I walk down the footpath with our two beautiful dogs, Gracey and Monty. I reflect upon the life that I have led up to this point. In my personal experience, I too have been caught up in approval seeking. I only do things when my coach or my partner gives me the yes signal until then I wait. As I reflect on my own mind, I notice when I make a mistake my mind will judge me harshly, I too feel inferior to those that are more successful than me. Unconsciously I have been comparing myself with others, through self-reflection and I now come to the realisation that it’s time to step out of my own prison.